I’m not gonna let you become a martyrThe disasters are here, sewn into the seams of the blanket I pull over me to keep them close, sewn with double stitching, thread made of tragedy and heartbreak, material consisting of one hundred percent contempt as I turn away from you, away from the light, and suffocate myself when all I had to do was listen harder. I can't hear you. The noise inside my skull is always too loud. I always want to be somewhere else. I always want to be someone else. Just let me sleep.
I’m not gonna let you pickup the gun
I’m gonna make this a whole lot harder
Won’t make it easy for you to run
Don’t go and blow it all, it’s bad enough baby
I don’t wanna hear you saying it’s not you, it’s me
If there’s blood on my hands, you should let me know
If you’re done with a dance, you should let me go
Oh, baby you said it all,
There’s nothing you can say to break my fall
Please.
No. Get up, Peanut. It's Thursday.
What's today again?
What do you want it to be?
I flip the blanket right off the bed, letting contempt smother grief instead. I want it to be a happy day.
And what would make you happy?
Eggs BENEDICT!
What else?
An extra cup of coffee after the first one. Like one to wake me up and then one to savour.
What else?
I don't want to see the Devil today.
Easy. Okay. Let's go find that coffee. What about for the afternoon?
Let's lament the Canucks not making it into the playoffs. JUST KIDDING. We knew that would happen.
We didn't know you would be so gleeful about it.
It's just one more chance for the Leafs, if you ask me.
The Leafs aren't going to make it eith-
DON'T RUIN MY DAY.