Progress! Wow!
I'm getting somewhere, folks. For the very first time this afternoon in therapy, I didn't make excuses for Cole's sick brand of love. I said it out loud. It was a huge breakthrough. I've been blaming me for him for everything and something snapped today.
So I'll say it out loud again. Then I'm going to rip it into tiny pieces and maybe eat it.
Cole was a sexual sadist.
There. I said it twice. I can own it now. This is huge. Say it out loud, baby.
Now maybe I can work past it. At last. I'm so happy. Jacob is...completely heartbroken again. He knows what those words mean. I didn't before today. I didn't know it had a name.
