Having my gasping while waking up investigated. Ha. I sleep four hours a night, who has time to run diagnostics? It's too bad we can't just use a code reader like on vehicles. Plug it in and say, ah yes. There's the problem.
I have a reader but it's going to test the amount of oxygen in my blood and how many times an hour it drops. This should be fun.
In other news, I managed to get my boyfriend back along with my email. But this time I got to level the caveats. Caleb pressed his dark hair down against my light hair and let out a long sigh while I detailed all the horrible things I would let the boys do to him if he hurts me again. It's incredible how emotionally delicate he is with me and how physically careless, almost like night and day.
And so far I have always politely and firmly demanded, hysterically pleaded and thunderously begged the boys not to hurt him in return.
This time I will turn lights on them, even encourage them should he cross that line.
He's not going to.
I believe him when he tells me this. His hands shook. He could not meet my eyes. He didn't like being cut off, didn't like being left out, wouldn't stand for the lack of comfort he could get so easily before.
I made him watch all my shows with me.
(That was I think the only part Lochlan liked. He no longer had to watch episodes of Wanteez. Which is hilarious.)
I made him promise me the moon and stars and then demanded he not even look at them, that they were mine. I put him on trial. I gave him an apprenticeship. I treated him ridiculously terribly. I acted like a brat. I levelled all of his crimes at him when he protested. I made him repeat them back and reminded him that he will forever be grateful that I allow him to be in my life at all.
I think he's beginning to see the light.
But yeah, I took him back because clearly I'm weak and his charm is my kryptonite and we all know that was going to happen but apparently it took longer than people thought it would. There is only one week left of summer. He missed the whole thing.
(Which is fine, I did too.)